OMG, I've just gotten the feeling.
That feeling.
I know the feeling they had. All of them. Who killed with a smile. Or worked undercover.
It's when you look at a random person, smile and say "Thank you" thinking that they know nothing of what is really going on.
They will never be inside my head.
They will never see things.
They will never know things.
They will never know anything at all.
And I will keep ons aying "Thank you".

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You could've wasted 2 years on your fail boyfriend. Right. That fake feeling of safety. But then there comes me.
With that "I'm-doing-you-tonight" attitude. And your life goes to hell.
And I go to work.
Well, sorry, I just use the opportunities you give me.
Steve

@музыка: Infected Mushroom - Becoming Insane

@настроение: 人格分裂

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mellow
Держало 2 дня. Примерно.

@настроение: happy一下

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I don't like women who:

- У меня дом, машина, вся фигня.
- Вы, наверное, очень много работаете, если у вас есть это все в 27 лет.
- Да не, мне все это муж купил, а на работе я так, чтобы дома от скуки не умереть.
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У меня этого нет. И на этой работе я потому, что мне нужны деньги. Я не жалуюсь на то, что три урока в день - это много. Потому что это - чушь. И, блин, тетки с пиздой правят миром. Моим, бля, миром!

@настроение: 讨厌

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Mmm, I touch people.

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All Hail Armageddon

Ранее Патрушев уже рассказывал журналистам о том, какие положения войдут в новую редакцию российской военной доктрины. В частности, документ предусматривает возможность нанесения упреждающего ядерного удара по агрессору в критических для национальной безопасности ситуациях.

При этом применять ядерное оружие при отражении агрессии с применением обычных средств поражения Россия сможет не только в крупномасштабной, но и в региональной и даже в локальной войне.

lenta.ru/news/2010/02/05/doctrine/

@темы: pizdets

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Who said "haunting memories"? She gets more and more beautiful as the time goes by.
WTF was that marriage? Probably the same F that my marriage has been.
I'm not easy to shock or something, but my hands are literally shaking now. Well, it might be "another 4-5 hours of gameplay" of "The Pitt".
And there's somebody singing in the office.
Self-taught drama.
How am I supposed to quit smoking now? How the fuck am I supposed to get better?
Why wouldn't they just let me forget?
Who "they"?
Don't know. The Gods of RPG?
Say, why do I remember it all? SPb - Shanghai - Nanjing - Chengdu - Frankfurt, whatever order.
I feel like I need to stand up right now, smash somebody in their face, crash the computer and run for the **** of my life.
Cross the continent, kill everyone and flee to fucking Acapulco.
"Circumscribe the Earth and go" (c)
Instead I wonder who we could've been, if.

@настроение: 雷人

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"Save it for the morning after"
Contacts contact contacts. Peer to peer. Transparent web. Web 2.0. Everything you say, everything you see.
Each of us has a chance to be smarter than those before them. Nobody takes it. Just nobody.
We browse porn. Download music.
We learn to pleasure ourselves.
Knowledge is a waste of time.
Take me down.
Or take me as you wish.
And then I fuck and I thought I'd write about it. It's all my imagination. Faces. Sounds.
Attitudes.
Even smell.
Action doesn't count.
They're solving a problem. Damn schedule problem. The parallel lines've crossed and they're running. Running back and forth and calling people.
Or not people. Or not calling.
I smoke not. Write it on the board 500 thousand times.
Like, permanent detention.
Trying not to forget to remember.

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freelanceswitch.com/rates/

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Alright, I finally got it back. My 2-stroke. Now it's nothing like it was before. It looks like walking (eeehm, riding) trash. It's blue and red and yellow and so many other colors. And the plastic doesn't fit in most places. So it had to be cut a bit.
Well, when this kind of thing smokes a sporty Ford from the traffic light, there's something to think about there' right?

@настроение: 滑板车

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It was one of those days when Jim thought he was Jake and Jake wanted to smoke. And all those girls.
He started with Maya, such a lovely cartoon name. or porn name, whatever you wish, Jake.
- Thanks, Jim.
And then he thought he had had enough of Jenny, 'cause their names sported the same capital "J". So he switched to Tekken, right?
- Right.
Dark Resurrection.
Iron Fist Tournament 5. PSP. Full version.
And then when everybody was gone, or in the shower, or dead, or in McDonald's he though he'd better be paying for it.
- For...?
Damn, are you THAT stupid?

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How stupid is that, taking personal names of the stationery brands.
- Hello, my name is Parker. Pan Parker. But you can just call me Parker Pan.
Or
- My name is Kitty. Everybody say "Hello, Kitty!"
Pathetic

@настроение: 笨蛋在想

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Don't get the baby if you want to.
And don't have the baby if you were a very good kid yourself. Don't get one if you were a bad kid either.
Don't have the baby if you don't know know what to do with it.Don't have the baby if you think you're gonna be a good parent. Don't have the baby if you got nothing to raise the baby up on. I mean, cash. I always mean cash when I say something.
Don't get the baby if you're not ready. And if you think you are ready, go to the children's hospital at about 2 a.m. and stay there for a couple of hours. Just watch. And listen. And think again.
Don't think you planned it all, though.
Cause even if you did, your plansgo to hell with not enough sleep.
Go to bed at 00:00. Wake up at 6:00. Repeat. Repeat.
Do that for a week.
A month.
I guess I kinda broke all the aforementioned rules.
Do I regret?
No, I don't.
I'm just marveling at myself.

@настроение: 小孩

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"Everything Hits At Once" (c)

@настроение: 真的是

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Пойти узнать, что говорит тебе нумерология: uborshizzza.livejournal.com/772616.html

Я не могу понять, это специальный такой запланированный пиздец, который меня там всегда ждал? Или просто все tak?

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1. It kinda sucks when you overhear how the girl you kinda like is being asked out.
2. It definitely sucks to have a girl you kinda like when you're married.
3. It's not good when your friends go missing one by one.
4. It's not good when your phone goes into endless reboot.
5. It's not good to be thinking of suicide every day. You know, there so many ways, I feel like I'm in a supermarket.
6. It's not good to be thinking of how you could kill people in various ways. Say, today I thought I could kill any cowboy just by feeding their horse a square of acid.
7. It's not good to come homw drunk at 4 am and watch porn and throw up and watch porn again and go to work shortly after. After that everything seems to be porn.
8. It's not good to jerk off. Definitely not good when you imagine an office girl bending over your curriculum.
Oh, fuck this word. "Curriculum". I guess when some gay noble Roman invented that he was shitting hard.
C'mon, it sounds like someone's having a shit of his life:
"Currrriculum".
9. It's not good waking up home wishing you woke up in a nother home that has never existed but in your sudden imagination burst.

And then they all say:
"You have to understand!" and
"Don't hurt them, they're good"
and then
"80% of women do not really enjoy sex with men" or
"I'm sure she is right"
And it fucking feels like there's a field, an endless field. With a princess in the middle. And the princess is ugly and stupidand kinda not facinating. But she's the only princess around there. And the field is huge. Dark and empty. And the princess there is damn annoying and not funny. But you can't say or do anything. It's your field and it's your princess and then everybody goes:
"It's your choice and you made it, now you have to take the responsibility!"
And you fucking take it. And drag it. And forget how your life was before you had all that shit. You forget how funny you were. And how free. And how you could do anything you wanted.
And how "yes" was yes and "no" was also yes.
And how everything was.
You work, you drink, you sleep, you think of death, you sleep, you work, you drink.
You play "Fallout 3", 20 minutes a day and don't fucking get it why your spare time had gotten so compressed.
You try to persuade yourself you've grown up and you need to pretend to start to love what you got. But you can't. Just can't start loving it. Or start believing yourself.
That's all you, Steve.
You told me about switching. It was your idea. I kinda liked it. And then, well, if it were me, I'd probably have already been utterly happy with what I got.
Or you got.
Or is it like, I got it and you help me get rid of it?
And then, after I, well, you understand everyone, who'll understand me? Him? Say, if we start playing doctor and psycho, that'd be gay.
What if I'm already gay?
I love fucking myself so much.

@настроение: 人坏了

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Taken from:
sonikelf.diary.ru/
...точнее та, которой я, улыбаясь, смогу сказать "детка, мы куём жёсткий панк-рок!"

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drugoi.livejournal.com/3153593.html

print out

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у меня никогда не было секса на работе. возможность была. но мы с ней существовали как-то параллельно. с возможностью.

@настроение: 做爱、开玩笑